Sunday, April 18 & Monday April 19

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In 1993, I spent the year writing in a blank datebook from 1954. Now, in 2010, I'm posting each page on the web and writing about it. You may want to start at the beginning.

1954: April 18-19

The writing on this page is all from Monday (other than Heather's birthday, naturally) so I'll write about it there.

The sketch in pen was something I drew in Gaby's living room. I was there along with several of our friends, hanging out on a grey April day. It's of a person coming to a door to find some people laying on the floor in a room. It's imagined, not from life; I no longer remember quite why I drew it. But I remember I was pretty withdrawn that day. I tend to be very quiet on Sundays in general -- like it's a mental day of rest.

The story that carried from Sunday over to Monday was written that way because it was the last thing to appear on the page. It's an anecdote from a night at Baloney's, the sandwich shop I worked at in downtown Barrington. I conclude it rather awkwardly (and quite a bit more flippantly than it deserved -- probably as much due to space constraints as to my not-very-well-formed racial awareness) but in retrospect, I don't think the encounter had anything to do with race. I have a feeling the man in question was mentally ill. Calling me racist for giving him a larger size coffee than he paid for, after waiting for a new pot to be brewed and being told that we were going to close soon, doesn't exactly follow.

He was one of the only customers all night, too. As noted in the little shaded box, it rained heavily all day and night, which meant not many people stopped in, and nobody went outside during lunch or open hours. You'd have to be pretty crazy to go out in that weather-- oh, wait.

I'm not sure who wrote the little quote that leads off with "This may come as no surprise..." (it's a Duran Duran lyric), but the little quote just above it is significant. "Let's got to bed... sleep that is." Remember my mentioning Nikki a couple days back? Tonight I talked for a long time on the phone with her. We flirted up a hell of a storm. There's nothing like an actor for some thrilling, flirty talk. At the end of the conversation, it was quite late, and I said that quote. I didn't mean for it to be a line, but it totally ended up being one. We dated for a month or two after this.

Unfortunately, at that time, I was dating Melissa. Despite that going pretty well, I ended up breaking up with her for Nikki. The reasons were many -- at least mostly because I was fickle, always after the next, potentially better thing. But one more concrete reason was because I felt too comfortable with Melissa, too natural, if that makes sense. It felt like I'd known her forever, and that made it somehow less interesting than the possibilities. I later learned that was a big mistake. But we have some time before that realization.

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This page contains a single entry by Andrew Huff published on April 18, 2010 8:45 PM.

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