Saturday
Nice spades. And apparently I showed someone named Erin how to write her name in my secret alphabet? Interesting. Not sure which Erin that was.
Someone got all Grateful Dead-y.
Sunday
"Security" by Peter Gabriel. Definitely written by Maggie. Not sure why.
Secret writing:
I realized a correlation between my problem with Gaby and the movie, "The Fischer King." Perry must fulfill his quest for the grail before he can go on with his life. I have to cry over Gaby before I can get on with mine. Hopefully it won't do any damage to Gaby to help me do it...
I had a very tough time crying back then. Still do, to some extent, but back then it was a major psychological block -- even when I wanted to, I couldn't make the tears come, couldn't release the build-up. I'm not sure crying over Gaby was exactly what I needed, but the instinct that I needed to let go of my obsession was correct.
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